My way of dealing with things is to obsess of something. At the moment, it's the Vampire Diaries. On my laptop, I had the entire first season of it and I watched it everyday so that I didn't have to think. When the laptop broke, I couldn't watch it. I had to think. The laptop broke on Wednesday last week, I had a breakdown on Friday morning.

I depend so much on my obsessions. I need them.

It might seem crazy, and it probably is.

I have the laptop back now, and I feel okay again. I can go back to not thinking, to not feeling.