This whole thing has made me feel so ugly.

I really thought I was in with a chance..
But no.
Next time, I'm not even going to bother.
I kinda sorta got my hopes up a little bit.
Now, I'm just pissed off.

Forever alone.
But getting used to it.

I think I've talked myself out of the baby thing. And that's good.
I don't know what I want to do with my life yet.
I'm just going to attempt to live in the moment. That will fail, I know it will. Because I hold grudges.
But, I'll just see what happens.

I always thought you guys were my friends.
Not just friends, but really good friends.
Now, I see I may have been wrong.
Friends don't make friends feel like this.