Sunday - I broke.
Monday - I snapped.

Looking between my first profile picture and my current profile picture on Facebook.. It feels like I'm looking at two different people.

Neither of you will understand how bad I felt having to say no. I was curled up in a ball in tears. No joke. I really wanted to hang out, just the three of us. You can be annoyed at me if you want. But I tried.

This whole thing has made me feel so ugly.

I really thought I was in with a chance..
But no.
Next time, I'm not even going to bother.
I kinda sorta got my hopes up a little bit.
Now, I'm just pissed off.

Forever alone.
But getting used to it.

I think I've talked myself out of the baby thing. And that's good.
I don't know what I want to do with my life yet.
I'm just going to attempt to live in the moment. That will fail, I know it will. Because I hold grudges.
But, I'll just see what happens.

I always thought you guys were my friends.
Not just friends, but really good friends.
Now, I see I may have been wrong.
Friends don't make friends feel like this.