Sometimes, I just want to be invisible.

I closed my eyes and went back to that night. It was happening all over again. And it felt so real. I could almost feel the way the ground moved everything underneath and around us, the sound of everything that we thought was solid being moved and the sight of the flashes as the powerlines were ripped from their power supply. It was terrifying. Even just revisiting it again nearly three weeks later. My heart is still racing.

For once, I wish I could hear someone say I was beautiful and mean it.

I was thinking about it today.
And I realised something.
During the earthquake, for the first time that I can remember, I was your priority.

Going to Auckland, just us, is gonna be awesome!!

It’s been nearly 3 weeks since the earthquake.

Tonight will be the first night I will sleep by myself.

I’m scared.

This is good. I like this. It's just like the way it was.

I think it's cool that you felt you could come here. You needed someone to talk to and you turned up on our doorstep, not knowing how we would react, but doing it anyway. Everyone needs someone to talk to. And now you know that you can come here.

I felt safe with you. With you protecting me.

For once, you actually acted like a dad.

I miss you.
We don't talk anymore.
But even if we did,
I wouldn't know what to say anymore.