Honesty

I can't find it in me to be honest with anyone at the moment. Not even myself. I'm worried people will think less of me.

I have secrets.
I have told lies.
I have lost myself.
This isn't me and I'm scared.

I want to be honest with people. But I can't take them knowing the truth. And it's the smaller things that I wish I had tried harder to hide.

I'm sinking..
Can anybody help me..?
Or am I past saving..?